original music by ithalia johnson
Nobody dare tell another sad story
About the one that nearly got away
I wanna be where the mad meets the glory
I wanna hear what the angels say
This restless quest makes a spirit weary
Sometimes I break down and start to cry
Nobody told me I would be running
But I don’t have to wonder why
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m alone for a while
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m a clone for a while
I saw my friend just the other day
When he went down he never got up
Still he swears that he’s on his way
Sister believe me I never gave up
I wish I could take you where I’m going
I won’t really know till I get there
But I wanna wake up without wondering
If I can really settle here
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m alone for a while
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m a clone for a while
So I’ll walk with the angels
What do angels have to say?
Talk with the angels
Why do angels have to pay?
I wanna be where the ocean reeks
Of many things that are right in my life
Open the window climb inside
I need to sleep with God tonight
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m alone for a while
I need to have my own
Need to feel my life is my own, it’s my right
I’m gonna have my own
Even if that means I’m alone for a while
I need to have my own
Even if that means I’m alone for a while
Even if that means I’m a clone for a while
I’m not afraid of pain
Does that make me insane?
I’m not evil
Does that make me too plain?
I won’t settle down until I find my way
All these feelings that I’m feeling
You can never ever really take away
Cause on and on and on we go
Where we stop nobody knows
And on and on and on we pray
Just to see another, another day
On and on and on we try
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
I’m not empty
See these feelings I have spill
I’m not crazy
Cause I have this will
I’m not breaking down
To lay out on the road
I’ll keep searching till I find it
I will knock from soul to soul
Cause on and on and on we go
Where we stop nobody knows
And on and on and on we pray
Just to see another, another day
On and on and on we try
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
Hold me steady till it’s all right
Help me find you in my heart tonight
See I’m not ready but it’s all right
Cause I will hold you in my heart for life.
La la la la la life
La la la la la life
All these feelings that I’m feeling
You can never ever really take away
Cause on and on and on we go
Where we stop nobody knows
And on and on and on we pray
Just to see another, another day
On and on and on we try
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
Till our waters run dry, dry, dry
La la la la la life
This la la la la la life
This la la la la la life
Stop trying to tell me what to feel
I saw no sign telling me
Your loving wasn’t really real, uh huh
I would feel complete then you would tell me
How I won’t understand the way you love
And that I’m over, baby I’m confused
Cause first you told me I was your desire
When you took my hand
And now I’m slowly fading through discovering
What I won’t understand.
So many nights I try to understand
Why the house of pain is in my veins
You’re not there
So many, so many nights I don’t understand
I’m angry for playing silly games
I start to sneeze emotions
And the irritation makes me want to blame, uh huh
I don’t interpret things but you would tell me
How I should understand the way you’re thinking
That I’m crazy, baby help me out,
Cause first you told me I was your desire
When you took my hand
And I’m so tired of waking to the lazy words
That I won’t understand
So many nights I try to understand
Why the house of pain is in my veins
You’re not there
So many, so many nights I don’t understand
Oh baby, oh please call out my name
Oh baby, oh please help me with the pain
Your picture is still hanging on the wall, uh huh
I wish that time would rewind
And the serendipity would truly call, uh huh
So many nights I try to understand
Why the house of pain is in my veins
You’re not there
So many so many nights I don’t understand
Uh, uh, why?
So many, so many nights I try to understand
I am beautiful all the time
Wear my make-up
On the inside of my mind
If you look outside clothes ain’t so pretty
If you look inside me I’m so pretty
I am beautiful, it’s not a crime
To wear my make-up
On the inside of my mind
My lips are purple
From explaining too much
My heart is heavy
From faking too much
Can you seek inside her?
Can you feel my fire?
Drop the world that doesn’t see me
Cause my heart is tired of fearing
When you stay you don’t relate
What do you see?
Drop the world that doesn’t see
That inadequate dreams are real
When you stay you don’t relate
Is it me?
I am beautiful, I am kind
Let me turn the light on in your mind
Your empty words are beginning to crush
The casual kindness
that I think I give too much
You will be inspired
If you fuel my fire
Drop the world that doesn’t see me
Cause my heart is tired of fearing
When you stay you don’t relate
What do you see?
Drop the world that doesn’t see
That inadequate dreams are real
When you stay you don’t relate
Is it me?
Come hear the angels
I say come hear the angels
I pray come here the angels
Woman oh! Come hear the angels
Drop the world that doesn’t see me
Cause my heart is tired of fearing
When you stay you don’t relate
What do you see?
Drop the world that doesn’t see
That inadequate dreams are real
When you stay you don’t relate
Is it me?
Drop the world that doesn’t see
That my heart is tired of fearing
When you stay you don’t relate
What do you see?
Drop the world that doesn’t see
That inadequate dreams are real
When you stay you don’t relate
Is it me?
I wanna break out
Some people don’t want me to go
I just wanna fly like a bird
And see the wisdom fields
Of what I don’t know
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy with the sentences
Of the tribes we’re in
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy
With the confinements of the tribes we’re in
We live in a world
You can have most anything
You tear up my soul, you fill it with holes
And then you make me an offer
You wanna take chances
Oh you know you shouldn’t take on
We choose what we want for our reasons
But you don’t know a lot about the life I live
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy with the sentences
Of the tribes we’re in
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy
With the confinements of the tribes we’re in
We live in a world
You can change most anything
If you peel off my skin you’re still looking into
What you never looked over
It’s all about options
Once you know you have them
You don’t need them all
We choose what we want for our reasons
But you don’t know a lot about the life I live
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy with the sentences
Of the tribes we’re in
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Why do we need to cross the waters?
Why do we need to cross the waters?
I wanna get out
You wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy
With the confinements of the tribes we’re in
I wanna get out
And you wanna get into my skin
It seems we’re never happy with the sentences
Of the tribes we’re in
I wanna get out
And you wanna jump into my old skin
It seems we’re never happy
With the confinements of the tribes we’re in
Oh baby don’t you see
I’m for you and you’re for me
If you’re feeling what I feel
This time I know that love’s for real
And I wanna feel true love in me
The sky is the deal
So tell me what you need
This love is all I need
And just like a river
Bleeds into the sea
I feel it run through you and me
This love is all I need
I’ll hold you endlessly
Cause this love is what I feel
It comes so effortlessly
Oh baby don’t you know
I feel you everywhere I go
And I don’t want to walk away
I’m here forever and a day
And I wanna feel true love in me
The sky is the deal
So tell me what you need
This love is all I need
And just like a river
Bleeds into the sea
I feel it run through you and me
This love is all I need
I’ll hold you endlessly
Cause this love is what I feel
It comes so effortlessly
I came here to love to you
Be your high while life’s knocking you down
In your eyes I see there is love too
But can I trust you to keep it around
I won’t cry but the things that I go through
Just to find you so we won’t be left behind
This love is all I need
And just like a river
Bleeds into the sea
I feel it run through you and me
This love is all I need
I’ll hold you endlessly
Cause this love is what I feel
It comes so effortlessly
(Repeat)
When love feels like lightning baby it’s frightening
You don’t know if you’re alive
But sometimes the lightning is the right thing
Cause it brings you back to life
Inside you’ll feel all the time
What you were missing all your life
Baby let your love show then I might know
That you’re really holding on
Maybe if the love shows then it might grow
Then I can feel we’re almost home, home, home
Yes I can feel we’re almost home
As you walk beside me I need you to guide me
When I feel I’m going wrong
Don’t hide it and deny it baby realize it
It won’t kill you it makes you strong
If you go don’t go it alone
Cause if it’s strong then it can’t be wrong
Baby let your love show then I might know
That you’re really holding on
Maybe if the love shows then it might grow
Then I can feel we’re almost home, home, home
Yes I can feel we’re almost home, home, home
Cause I don’t wanna be alone
It’s cold out here on my own
No I don’t wanna be alone
It’s cold when are you gonna come home?
Nobody wants to be alone
It’s cold out there on your own
Nobody wants to be alone
Baby let your love show then I might know
That you’re really holding on
Maybe if the love shows then it might grow
Then I can feel we’re almost home
Baby let your love show then I might know
That you’re really holding on
Maybe if the love shows then it might grow
And I can feel we’re almost home, home, home
Yes I can feel we’re almost home, home, home
I can feel we’re almost home
Home, mm
Home, mm
Home, mm mm
Home, mm
If love means anything at all
Bleed the writing on the wall
If trust means anything at all
Call me when you say you’ll call
Baby I’ll believe it if you reveal it
Just thought you might want to know
Cause you’re like a sharp blade
You cut when you’re holding me
Cut open my mouth and let me speak
See your shadow hanging on the wall
And I hear the Lord when you call
Do you give me anything at all?
When you swear you’d never let me fall
Baby I’ll believe it if you repeat it
Just thought you might want to know
Cause you’re like a sharp blade
You’re trying to cut my faith
Cut open my eyes and let me see
Baby I’ll still feel it if you repeat it
Just thought you might want to know
But if keep feeling in love without being
Just think I might let you go
Cause you’re like a sharp blade
You cut when you’re holding me
Cut open my mind and set me free
And you’re like a sharp blade
Just trying to cut my faith
Cut open your heart
Let me see that you bleed
Cause you’re like a sharp blade
You you’re trying to cut my faith
Cut open my mind and set me free
Don’t cry for me just let me be
Sisters, brothers I’ve done
I’ve done my time
See I’ve live a lifetime like all great men
I’ve played with angels and evil friends
I’ve done it around again
See I’ve done my time
Well first you said you lost you love
I believe it’s the one
And then you said you lost your child
And you hope faith is done
But all in all you’re not a victim
With love breeding pain and scorn at your door
Don’t die for me just set me free
Sisters, brothers you are
Expecting worse times
See I’ve lived a lifetime of ageless sin
I drank love’s poison
And prayed to die and lived again
I’ve changed it around again
See I’ve done my crime
Well first you said you lost you love
I believe it’s the one
And then you said you lost your child
And you hope faith is done
But all in all you’re not a victim
With love breeding pain and scorn at your door
Spent so many lifetimes
Holding on to the pain
Tried listening to the world
But I didn’t understand it
Oh I just really wanted to die
But I didn’t die, no I didn’t die
See I’ve lived a lifetime of ageless sin
I drank life’s poison
But when I died I live again
I’ve changed it around and around and again
I’ve done my time oh yeah
Well first you said you lost you love
I believe it’s the one
And then you said you lost your child
And you hope faith is done
But all in all you’re not a victim
With love breeding pain and scorn at your door
And I live in an angry space
Where the Gods couldn’t even get to me
If they wanted to
And I eat from an empty plate
So my mind wouldn’t even recognize
Looking right through you
Believed in another fate
I’m trying to live another way
But this world keeps laying its hands on me
Yes this world keeps laying its hands on me
Yes, I live in an angry place
Where the clan couldn’t even see the hate
Seeping from their face
And I belong in another space
Where the sea can touch the sky
And make another race
Believed in another fate
I’m trying to live another way
But this world keeps laying its hands on me
Yes this world keeps laying its hands on me
This ain’t over though times grow colder
Sometimes we need to cry
If you don’t go under it makes you stronger
It’s the only world we’ve got so hold on tight
And I pray for another day
Where there’s peace inside my bones
No matter what they say
And I wait for an empty cage
Where my fears can sleep inside
And swallow up my rage
Believed in another fate
I’m trying to live another way
But this world keeps laying its hands on me
Yes this world keeps laying its hands on me
I believed in another fate
I’m trying to live another way
Yes this world keeps laying
This world keeps laying
This world keeps laying
Its hands on me
Let me whisper all my love to you
And let me follow what I say with what I do
I may be dreaming
Saying I’ll make your dreams come true
But let me follow what I say with what I do
This ugly world needs no more doubt
These empty spaces need filling out
And your silenced soul needs a mouth to speak
And your frozen heart needs my love to breathe
Let me tell you that I’ll always understand
And let me follow what I can’t for what I can
I’m used to dreaming
All those promises I spilled
But let me follow what I won’t for what I will
This ugly world needs no more doubt
These empty spaces need filling out
And your silenced soul needs a mouth to speak
And your frozen heart needs my love to breathe
I was a dreamer
Who came to like your life with me
I need to shed my wings
So I can love you honestly
A promise maker
Who went running from your door
Now I don’t, I don’t wanna run no
I don’t wanna run, no
I don’t wanna run no more
This ugly world needs no more doubt
These empty spaces need filling out
And your silenced soul needs a mouth to speak
And your frozen heart needs my love to breathe
(Repeat)
Breath, love to breathe
Love to breathe
A warm and ascending interesting man
Lies beside me and walks through my life
I want him more than anything I ever had
Though his darkness is bigger than his light
So I push and I push and wear myself out
And I mourn how I’m prone to love just because
But there’s no way
He’s gonna let me stand by his side
Still I’m lost inside of his eyes
So I’ll be the one to take the chance
The last to applaud whenever you dance
Though I cry I won’t be around when you fall
Through the crevices you mold in your life
Though angels have eyes that allow them to see
All the good things that you tend to miss
I’ve broken the vow to always believe
That the broken can always be fixed
So I empty the trash in metaphorical grace
Your love waters my heart and we stand face to face
But there’s no way
You’re gonna let me stand by your side
Still I’m lost inside of your life
And I’ll be the one to let you sleep
When the judgments should come your secrets I’ll keep
Though I cry I won’t be around when you fall
Through the crevices you mold in your life
Oh I want to be your angel, angel
For eternity your angel, angel
But surely you can see
Angels tend to lose their wings
Then I’m just like you
But you’re not what I used to be
Still I’ll be the one to take the chance
The last to applaud whenever you dance
Though I cry I won’t be around when you fall
Through the crevices you mold in your life
And I’ll be the one to let you sleep
When the judgments should come your secrets I’ll keep
Though I cry I won’t be around when you fall
Through the crevices you mold in your life
Hey lover, are you with me?
Cause I grow tired trying not to sink
Without you in this ocean
Cause I can’t drink if you don’t drink
And surrender, just surrender, surrender it all
Just surrender, just surrender, surrender my love
Hey lover, are you with me?
Cause without you it’s just the sea
Where I’m drowning cause
I have no one to trust
And I don’t know if love is enough
To surrender, just surrender, surrender it all
Just surrender, just surrender, surrender my love
It takes so much to believe and trust
That if you let go it’s not the end
It hurts so much but I believe in us
And sometimes we die just to live again
So hey lover, stay lover and love
Hey lover, stay lover it’s enough
Just surrender, just surrender, surrender it all
Just surrender, I will surrender, surrender my love
Yes, I will surrender it all
Yes, I will surrender, surrender my love
Yes, I will surrender it all
Yes, I will surrender, surrender my love
You’ve got to surrender it all
You’ve got to surrender, just surrender my life
And I will surrender it all
Yes, I will surrender, surrender my love
Just surrender, just surrender, surrender it all
And I will surrender
I will surrender, surrender my love